What is your medium?

So I am conflicted at the moment. Here I am following my dream and I am unsure as to if I am following the medium I am "destined" to follow. And to those who are not aware of my medium or who do not know what a medium is: I am pursuing a career in Natural Horsemanship. Look at the title of this blog and put 2 and 2 together... I have chosen horses as my medium (i.e. what I use as an artist) and I am unsure as to whether I am pursuing a correct path...This all started thanks to a wonderful book (The Icarus Deception) which peaked my interest a year ago and I am just now picking up to read. Ironic I know. I should have read the fucking book a year ago when it first peaked my interest, but LIFE happens. Anyway I am contemplating whether or not I am choosing the medium of my choice or whether I am working against the stream... salmon work against the stream/river right? Am I a salmon or a trout? Which fish is happier in life? That is the question! To be or not to be? Oh fuck Shakespeare. No really, which fish should I choose? The fish who works their ass off to procreate (i.e. the salmon) or the fish who goes with the flow? (i.e. the trout) there is so much to contemplate and really I am astounded because at the moment my PHENOMENAL companion, Saga, a German Wirehaired Pointer/Vizsla mix, is starring at me with a look that says, "Who Cares?" and my only reaction is, "Everyone!" Of course that reaction is in my mind because I am all alone in a house that belongs to the one person I respect (my sister) and I don't want to wake her or her husband up to possibly explain how my personal issues are paramount in this instant instead of their sleep. Wow what a tangent... anyway back to the real story. I have chosen my medium; Natural Horsemanship. Specifically, Parelli Natural Horsemanship and I am conflicted because there is a cat, Jasper, meowing at me and my beautiful dog, Saga, who is laying by my feet unaffected... well kind of affected. Her reaction is based on my reaction which leads me to the point as to whether or not I should pursue a career in human/animal communication. Well, duh! Who else would react to a cat entering a dog's "domain" and whether or not that dog "agrees" with said cat entering their domain? Why not look at a cat entering a dog's domain as a black person walking in on a "white-only" restaurant?" I have NO REACTION! Slavery is not dead... we are all victims of slavery. Black, Native American, Woman, Horse, Dog... who is the ultimate slave owner? NO ONE!!! We are all equal: EVERYONE!!! If you cannot fathom the comprehension then get an EDUCATION!!! Equality is the future... WE ARE THE FUTURE! Start accepting your future and working towards EQUALITY! YOU ARE NOT BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE! Just as my beautiful dog is not better than a cat who has to piss/shit inside because he does not have the "education" to piss/shit outside. EQUALITY TRAINING is the FUTURE. How you train is the basis of HUMANITY. Are we thinking yet? I hope you are because everything you are experiencing now is the result of what you have trained people/animals to do! BE A BETTER LEADER (i.e. trainer). You want respect? Train those who "disrespect" you to RESPECT you! YOU ARE IN CHARGE OF YOUR YOUR VIEW OF RESPECT! DEMAND IT! And if you don't get the respect you feel you deserve... well, you might be a bigot. No offense. I am just saying to help prove my point...

FINALLY MY FIRST POST!

My journey started 26 years ago before blogging, the internet, and social media. I have been thinking about this post for months, years, a long time. The day has come for me to finally get my thoughts out. YES!

So here I am... recently divorced, homeless, alone, and enjoying my life for the first time. The freedom I am experiencing is just that freeing! Like a bird following her migratory path I understand I am where I need to be to live!

In two months I leave for Pagosa Springs, CO to participate in the July Fast Track at the Parelli Natural Horsemanship campus. I cannot wait to experience an education worth every cent, drop of blood, and sweat. No tears... I am not much of a crier.

What an adventure! I have experienced so much in the past three months about myself. All of my life experiences have led me to this point in my life and I am ready to pursue my destiny!

Stay tuned! This ship is sailing!